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Thinking about giving it a fresh start... Again. XDDD It's not like I am not working on my skills... Just not that much. I kinda lost my love for paining and drawing... Feels sad... I want it back. T____T But I seriously don't know how to... I'm just so tired of trying. Haaa~~ I don't know what happened. Life was busy, kept throwing stuff at me... and here I am now with a dying famliy member (yeah, cancer is a b***h), battling with my boss at work, trying to find a new ward to change to just to get away from her while crying way more often than I should be... I am so angry at life for being such an a**hole. ARGH! And then there is still my loved depression. Wheeehheeee... and anxiety. Though I amde great progress the past 3 years! I mean, I kinda told my boss that I hate her, I am looking for a new place... I started to workout. And finally I am working on a new story. At least that might give me some inspiration to draw again..? I hope at least. We will see... Life is mean and busy.
Wow... It has been a while
I think I'm slowly getting back again... I keep practicing, sketching, trying new things for the past weeks and hopefully I will get more productive again... I've been in a huge slump. It was difiicult for me to get out of it... I didn't really have any help... or people telling me to keep going (well, my best friend though, but she lives far far away from me...).
Trying to ge motivated again...I forgot that painting and drawing made me happy. I think I just wanted ot produce things and then slowly faded (?) Well, feels like I did. Haha~~
I hope I've gotten a little bit better... XD
LIFE~~ XDDD
Sooo... Haven't been here reaalllyyyy looonnnggg~~
But I want to come back... slowly, but I will try hard and work really hard and try to have fun with drawing and painting again. I think in the past 3 or 4 years I somehow forgot to have fun while drawing. Sure it is hard work, but it should be fun too, right? So I got myself into a huge artblock... HUGE! And I am not sure whether I am able to get out of it again. I will try though. I want to remember all those happy moments when I held a brush in my hand and just painted away like there was nobody judging me...
I can do it! I will be back!
My life has been extremely busy too. I am ha
DeviantArtist Questionnaire
Because I think this iswonderful... I take part too~~ XDD
And because I've been on this site for such a long time now too... O_o Time passes way too fast...
How long have you been on DeviantArt?
I joined about 10 years ago... That is quite a long time... XDDD
What does your username mean?
Baranamtara was a queen in ancient sumeria. She wrote poems and was one of the first known authors. Also when she died 500 musicians accompanied her body to her grave... That is just soooo wonderful... XDD
Describe yourself in three words.
Clumsy - lazy - and a daydreamer
Are you left or right handed?
Right... Totally. I can't do anything with my le
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Whittard? Noch nie gehört davon. ._.